Our Island Family Life

Well, before I get into the stuff that makes me want to cry and stick my head in the sand at the same time, let's mention the good stuff. Sofie had her end of year ceremony and it was great. She got an award for art and music. The kids did a play of the three little pigs. It was very cute. Sofie was one of the pigs hence the pink dress she wore to the party. I added some pictures of the party and of Cade and Sofie's fishing efforts they did today. They had a blast and so far summer break is going well. Sofie did get a slight burn yesterday. They always forget about reapplying the sunblock. Cade is fine. Will is fine. Connor.....

...is flat out nuts. I don't know if he was just crashing from all his efforts recently or what but he just kind of stopped. Everything and slept, or played video games to make him self, as he put it, "stop thinking". He created and downward spiral where he was angry with himself for not doing anything but not being able to do anything and the circle continued. He even took a book and started smacking his head with it over and over. I had tried calling his doctor for a week with no response. Connor missed his last week of school. Finally I got a call back and the doctor is consulting with his pdoc on which meds will be best. This is it. What I have been trying to avoid but he is not going to succeed or stay on track and stable without it. He feels so desperate he is almost out of his head waiting for some medication. I tried very very hard to stay calm and listen to his raving about. Surprising that didn't bother me too much. What got to me though was when he began to try and tell me how I should be parenting Cade and Sofie. He thought I should, "calm down" when I reminded Cade he was still banned from all electronics due to something he did last week. Cade was fighting with Connor about the xbox when he shouldn't have been since he wasn't allowed to use it anyway. I didn't yell but I did point and was firm. Cade wasn't upset with me at all but was still bugged about being banned. Connor felt I had ruined the whole atmosphere of the day by being angry. He was trying to have a nice morning and I was bringing everyone down over something stupid. I was stupid and Cade was stupid. I could just see his attitude of being superior to all of us lowly beings. He is so evolved. Not the simple teenager who knows everything stuff either. I just had enough and said my peace to him. I didn't yell but I did spill my guts. Then I left. I had to work after all. Work to pay for the clothes I bought him. I took Sofie with me rather than have her brothers babysit. Will was working too but even if he was I just didn't want her near Connor right then. I cried and felt a whole lot better. Now we just have to wait for his appointment. Just knowing he has one and that he is getting some medication has calmed him enough where he has been able to go back to work. I can only hope things will get better.