Have you ever watched x-files? There is one episode I have seen a ton of times since the kids love it about a humanoid tapeworm creature. In it this guy gets bit and has this nasty taste in his mouth and can't get rid of it. Of course he dies a nasty death. I keep having that image run through my mind. Why? Well, I went to the dentist on Tuesday and I did need a root canal and they could take me that same day. I was a bit shocked at how quick it was but the pain was pretty bad. I had Will and Sofie with me at the first appointment. I could come back later in the day so I sent them home and stayed. I got half the job done. I go back in two weeks since they want to make sure I don't get an infection from what they did. Since I was already on the penicillin I should be ok. I had to pay $500 that day though. I wanted to cry. I am just glad I had it. It is good I didn't have to pay for oil this month and electric. Just when you think you get ahead. The temporary sealant on it tastes vile, hence the x-files images floating in my dreams, it also makes me queasy. I can't quite put my teeth together yet but the pain is a lot better and hopefully will continue to improve.
Will had his appointment with the specialist for his knees this week. The problem isn't serious but there is no easy way to fix it. He has patellofemural syndrome. His femur is grinding against his patella and it is affecting his tendons. So the specialist told him to ride a bike 20 minutes a day three days a week to strengthen his muscles in his upper thigh. Will also got a leg brace for his knee. So we left there and Will bought a inside bike so he could workout on it during the winter. Bonus, I get to use it too..:) It was a nightmare getting it though. Will was very sad to part with the money but didn't want to miss any more school for his knee problem. There are times he can't even use the stairs it hurts so bad. I am glad he doesn't need surgery. It will take a lot of time and a cross your fingers hope for it to get better though.
I got the kids progress reports yesterday. Will had two classed he needed to improve in. I knew why though and expected it since it was because he had some missing days and it was only for two papers he needs to turn in. He is right on top of it so I know he will be fine by the closing of grades. Connor however is another story. I knew he would have issues in the second quarter since his recurring depression hits around then and causes havoc with his grades. Last year in his first quarter he did great. This time, now that he is with Sean. He is failing everything except one class and it's an elective. Connor mentioned over the phone he didn't think the school was "working out" for him but he was working hard and his grades were fine. I already know he is depressed from his break up. More than most people would be who don't have depression issues. I know it is causing him problems again in school. I also know he will blame the school and not take responsibility for his own actions and will try to see if he can go to a different school. It is very bad because there is no other school with such low teacher student ratio in the area. As well as all the support he gets to make up work and how great they were last year when he had his problems. They did so much to make him successful. I want to jump in but I'm not. Sean thinks he is such a great educator and how if the kids were with him then how great it would be. Since he doesn't address the real problem of the depression and only the school aspect then things won't get better. When I helped Connor last year his grades only improved when he got back into therapy and he really did well after that. As far as I know Connor hasn't been going to therapy. Sean and I didn't have therapy this week either. I canceled last week because of the flu which I now think was just the infection from my tooth setting in. I told Sean and the counselor I couldn't come and when I was available this week and if that was good for them to let me know. I also told Sean if the day I suggested didn't work he could email me and we could try and figure something else out. I never heard from him. I will contact the counselor on Monday and see where we go from here.
Sofie has swim today. She is excited. She rode her bike to school half the way and has grown up so much. She has a huge lump on her lip which looks very ugly. She called to Cade and he swung around to answer her and hit her in the face with a full grocery bag on Tuesday. He is so unaware of his surroundings. She looked like someone beat her up poor thing.
Speaking of Cade, he is staying here again this weekend. He is having friends over for the first time. He is very excited. He was supposed to call his dad and let him know. I am staying out of it again. It is kind of nice to just let them handle their own problems. I am so tired of dealing with it. Cade asked if he could have friends over and I said this was his home and that was fine with me but he should call his dad and that was the end of my input. Will is off to a Halloween party with his friends, Sofie will be with Sean so it will just be Cade and his gang and me. I need to do homework. I hope it doesn't get too loud with four 11 year old boys running around...:)
It has been hard keeping up with my work when I have been feeling so bad. I am doing it though and still have 4.0 so far. I have to pick out my classes for the next semester next week already. So scary.
Have you ever watched x-files? There is one episode I have seen a ton of times since the kids love it about a humanoid tapeworm creature. In it this guy gets bit and has this nasty taste in his mouth and can't get rid of it. Of course he dies a nasty death. I keep having that image run through my mind. Why? Well, I went to the dentist on Tuesday and I did need a root canal and they could take me that same day. I was a bit shocked at how quick it was but the pain was pretty bad. I had Will and Sofie with me at the first appointment. I could come back later in the day so I sent them home and stayed. I got half the job done. I go back in two weeks since they want to make sure I don't get an infection from what they did. Since I was already on the penicillin I should be ok. I had to pay $500 that day though. I wanted to cry. I am just glad I had it. It is good I didn't have to pay for oil this month and electric. Just when you think you get ahead. The temporary sealant on it tastes vile, hence the x-files images floating in my dreams, it also makes me queasy. I can't quite put my teeth together yet but the pain is a lot better and hopefully will continue to improve.
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We've gotten those same reports regarding DD before--where she's been failing everything except gym--and it's always because she never turned in any assignments, even though she would have told me a hundred times that "no, I don't have any homework" and "yes, I'm caught up on everything". You feel really helpless because you want them to succeed but you can't do the work for them....and it made me so angry, because of all the lies I'd been told!!!
It is frustrating. I asked Connor if he had missed more school than the one week he had been sick for thinking maybe that was the problem but he said he no. So what do I believe? He didn't miss school like he said and is failing because what, he isn't doing his work? Or that he did miss school and lied to me about it? Either way lies are being told and I just can't stand that anymore. I am burnt out on lies. Connor has learned from his dad that lies get you out of trouble but he hasn't learned how much they damage trust and relationships. I think he sees me and his dad as just a divorced couple who fight for stupid reasons and of course I don't believe his dad about stuff because of the divorce. The divorce is the least of my issues. It takes a long time of established patterns of behavior for me to finally get to a point of lost trust. Sean and I could still be married and the same issue would be there. I didn't divorce Sean because of lack of trust. Sean divorced me because he couldn't face what he had done to abuse his family financially due to his bipolar issues, he didn't want to be with people who knew he had bipolar issues and to have an affair. The issues were Sean's not mine. I think sometimes it was very sad that I would have stuck it out with him despite all that. Other times I am glad to know I had the kind of moral fiber to have done my best to have tried and not just cut my losses and run away.
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